Hi,
I need some advice. I have been addicted to gambling for about 5 years now, before my son was born i did something really stupid and stole from my employer to pay for my gambling the company i was working for found out and is pressing charges i have to go to court in november, the detective said that i wont be going to jail, but may get a conviciton.
My DP new nothing of my gambling as i had always lied about where i was going and told him i was with friends when really i was at the pokies, he came home from work when the dectective was here and i told him everything.
I'm 24 and he told his parents that night, i havent told my parents because i dont want to disappoint them but he keeps pressuring (sp?) me too.
He has been very supportive and got me to go to councilling about my gambling which has made me feel heaps better how can he still want to be with me, i havent played the pokies since the baby was born. The problem is i'm so stressed out with the court date coming i feel like i'm always sad even when i look at my beautiful baby boy i still wish i was dead, how could i have put pokies in front of my DP & DS? I feel like i'm pushing everyone away. I have always gotten along with my MIL but now i cant stand being near her and hearing about what she's got to say i dont even want her near my son.
I'm not sure wether to go to the doctors and get on some anti depresents to help me cheer up abit or if i'm always going to feel this way cause i feel so guilty... I keep thinking that if i leave my DP he would be better off without me. Please help........ Any advice would be great.
I need some advice. I have been addicted to gambling for about 5 years now, before my son was born i did something really stupid and stole from my employer to pay for my gambling the company i was working for found out and is pressing charges i have to go to court in november, the detective said that i wont be going to jail, but may get a conviciton.
My DP new nothing of my gambling as i had always lied about where i was going and told him i was with friends when really i was at the pokies, he came home from work when the dectective was here and i told him everything.
I'm 24 and he told his parents that night, i havent told my parents because i dont want to disappoint them but he keeps pressuring (sp?) me too.
He has been very supportive and got me to go to councilling about my gambling which has made me feel heaps better how can he still want to be with me, i havent played the pokies since the baby was born. The problem is i'm so stressed out with the court date coming i feel like i'm always sad even when i look at my beautiful baby boy i still wish i was dead, how could i have put pokies in front of my DP & DS? I feel like i'm pushing everyone away. I have always gotten along with my MIL but now i cant stand being near her and hearing about what she's got to say i dont even want her near my son.
I'm not sure wether to go to the doctors and get on some anti depresents to help me cheer up abit or if i'm always going to feel this way cause i feel so guilty... I keep thinking that if i leave my DP he would be better off without me. Please help........ Any advice would be great.