Hi Billi-jo, please don't suffer this in silence. I had PND after my first son was born and i suffered in silence for 4 months before my sister dragged me to see her doctor. Don't be embarrassed, we all need to stop feeling like a lesser of a mother because we are struggling with this disease. If you don't think you can talk to your doctor, early childhood nurses can help you, even your local hospital may have some help for you, call your Pre Natal Clinic and ask.
Please don't be embarrassed, no one will think any less of you, if you can't do it for you, do it for your little one's, they need you, you are there mum and they need you to be happy and healthy.
When i was struggling i didn't tell the world, i kept it to myself, only people you want to know need to be told, i only told my family and my best friend, but it helped knowing that there was someone to call on when i needed it.
I am now a mum for the second time, and so far so good, but i still have my moments.
If you would like to contact me my email address is aspbarwick@kooee.com.au. I am on line most days and i am very willing to talk/type with you and you never know we could become email friends. I understand where you are at the moment and i feel for you as it is a very hard thing to deal with.
Please feel better.
Sandie